Saturday, September 11, 2010

Supposed peace

It was supposed to be easy. I just wanted a birth control option that I wouldn't have to ever think about. It seemed like a good idea. It turned into an entire morning spent at the doctor's office. It involved serious stirrup time and my husband making jokes to get me through it. It involved getting an ultrasound in the same room where we had the unbearably painful look at our deceased baby. Flashback...flashback....flashback. It turned into going back to the doctor to have the damned thing removed. It turned into making another appointment for another day for another attempt. It will involve sedation, and perhaps the twilight sleep will dull the pain. I just wanted something that would make life easier. I just want some peace.

3 comments:

Melis.sa said...

((HUG))

butterflymom said...

I want peace for you too....soon. Take care.

Fumbling towards Motherhood said...

Oh Cynthia, I'm so sorry things didn't go smoothly. I hope peace comes to you soon. ((BIG HUG))

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