tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5045108216021167037.post7091068459370650122..comments2023-05-06T09:46:41.441-05:00Comments on My Yellow Brick Road Has Potholes: Lots of questions, but no answersMama Fiercehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04193265149964480794noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5045108216021167037.post-40715602233878880882010-02-10T13:09:10.120-06:002010-02-10T13:09:10.120-06:00Cynthia,
You pose so many good questions, that on...Cynthia,<br /><br />You pose so many good questions, that only you can have the answers to. I'm so sorry that there's no blaring reason for your losses (isn't it funny how we wish for problems). I know how difficult this road is, and how lonely it can be. I think that although you are unsure of where to go next, you should be very proud of yourself for making it this far. You have come a long way this past year. You have found a purpose for yourself with share. You have looked inside and dug deep to actually deal with your feelings of loss. That in itself is amazing. I found that taking this last year completely off from ttc was the best decision I could have ever made. I allowed myself to simply live, worry free for 12 months. I traveled, I ate, I worked out, I blogged, I enjoyed my friends, I got closer to my family, I became a volunteer, and ultimately I became a better wife and person. Now that I am back ttc, I feel so much stronger and wiser than I was before. I admit that yes last month (our first month back ttc) I let me nerves get the best of me. But now that I've got that out of my system, I feel at peace. I'm on cd27 today, and I am not stressing at all. I'm taking things one day at a time. I taught myself to be patient this past year, and now it seems to be paying off. I am dealing with the stress of ttc much better. <br /><br />So although you are the only one who can answer all of your questions, I'd like to throw a new question in the mix. Who is Cynthia outside of ttc? I was unable to answer that question for myself this time last year. What a difference a year of not ttc has made. I now know that I am a valued wife, daughter, sister, volunteer, blogger and friend. It may sound silly that I didn't know that before, but I managed to lose myself in my losses, and forget why I was loved and needed on this earth. Sometimes when we don't know what to do, it's best to just sit back, relax and breathe in the life we have, rather than running for the life we want.<br /><br />((BIG HUG)) Christa.Fumbling towards Motherhoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01554500847309300983noreply@blogger.com